I'm posting this as a Saturday post, since that's when I did my weigh in, but this entry is about my entire weekend through Monday evening.
STARTING WEIGHT (1/1): 254.
CURRENT WEIGHT (7/31): 206.
Weight loss this week: 2
Total weight loss: 48 lb.
I lost two pounds! I hit 206 for the first time! However...
After my weigh in, I commenced eating really badly this weekend. It was unprecedented. I kept eating until I had a stomach ache. I'm done, of course, because the weekend's over. It's crazy how I just did not stop myself when I had the bad food just sitting there with no one around to eat it but me. I bought more bad food even after I had already eaten plenty. I was full, but I still ate because I knew this was my only time I could be bad.
I still kinda had a stomach ache today, but that may be partly because I'm getting sick. (I think there's a bug going around too because everyone else seems to be getting sick too.) Anyway, tonight, after a long day at work, I decided to weigh myself again, which is something I almost never do.
Well.... tonight the scale read 211.
Yikes. This is three days after my weigh-in on Saturday that read 206. Now, I know my body fluctuates up and down every day, but that is a LOT of fluctuation. I didn't exercise at all this weekend either, so it's not like I gained muscle. After my bike ride home on Friday, I ended up playing softball and that made me sore the rest of the weekend. Sure, I went out a few times, but generally all I really did was veg and eat.
So, in conclusion, my gorging this weekend has pretty much put me off bad food for the next month or so. These were just poor choices and I will not be making them again any time soon. I do believe that I should allow myself to eat whatever I want at points, but these are the kind of actions that would sabotage everything I've been working so hard for this year and I'm going back to making sure I eat right as often as possible along with keeping up the exercise. Plus, it's just dangerous.
And in case people are wondering, no, I'm not going through a very stressful time or anything. Things are generally OK. I think I'm just not used to being in this body so I'm testing my limits and seeing what I can get away with whenever I get a chance. I just went really overboard this weekend. I really don't think I've eaten this badly since before the diet started. I am certain much of the weight gain is from eating and not from gaining muscle.
I'm really remembering how I blew it the last time I was around this weight. I guess we'll see where I'm at come next Saturday morning. I'm hoping I've just got a lot to process still in my system and hopefully the rain won't prevent me from biking a few times to and from work this week as it did last week.
I feel like right now I'm in the middle of this stupid fight between Clark Kent and Superman from Superman III and I'm Clark Kent and the old me is Superman.
Thanks again for the support everyone. I won't let either of us down.